| Life is a frisbee. |
[Jul. 29th, 2007|02:00 pm] |
It's 2:00 in the afternoon here in North Carolina. I woke up two hours ago, showing that I can be a lazy slob every now and then. Usually, I'm up by 9:00, but I went to sleep at 6:00 in the morning with no prior sleep to that. I stayed up because of the Blogathon. I dropped out of the 'thon at about 3:30, I think, but I still stayed awake and tried to get more sponsors for the charity, even though I had already met my goal. That sounds kind of stupid, but I wanted to at least raise $1,000 before I went to bed. I ended up getting thirty-four sponsors, ten more than I thought I would get.
I told my grandma yesterday that I would go to church with her, even though I really hate going to church. She didn't have anyone else to go with. But because I went to bed so late, I wasn't awake in time to get up and get ready. She did try to wake me up, but I told her I was too tired. I feel bad for letting her go by herself, but she doesn't seem to be too upset about it, so I guess everything is ok.
My parent's are still in Greensboro with their friends, Chuck and Lisa. I called them whenever I got up, and they said they weren't good and going yet. I figure they will get home at around 6:00-8:00. I could have went to Greensboro with them, but I'm sure my weekend wouldn't have been as fun as it was, even though I just stayed in the house. I don't like going to gun/knife/hunting exhibitions, because I'm not interested and they take too long. Plus, I know me and my mom would argue like crazy on the 5 hour drive to Greensboro.
I'm almost done with Survivor. I would tell you that I'm on chapter 15, but it doesn't seem like I'm almost over with it. The book is actually backwards. The story is still told in chronological order, but the chapters and pages all number backwards.
If you haven't noticed, I'm a big fan of nihilist literature. You may even get a vibe of nihilism from reading this journal. I haven't read Nietzsche yet, but I plan on reading some of his works later on in life. I'm putting my focus on Palahniuk now. I'm a nihilist, myself, but I'm not a downtrodden, "boo hoo", nihilist. Life doesn't have a meaning, but that doesn't mean it should suck. That's my philosophy. Even though there's no reason for life, you should still live it to it's fullest. Don't let anyone tell you what to believe, either. Morals are stupid.
I'm going to stop being a jerk. I'm not too great to get along with, and before a couple of months ago, I didn't notice it. I've never been serious about changing until now. Amber has really pointed out the fact that a lot of people can't stand to be around me, and that I don't let people like me. Frankly, I don't care if no one likes me now, and I don't care if I regain their friendship. I just want to prevent people that I meet in the future from not liking me. But, honestly, it's not my fault that people are stupid. I'm a really nice person, unless you're rude, stupid, or anything else that's undesirable. If people don't let me like them, then I won't like them. No one seems to understand that, and I'm always the bad guy.
I'm going to be writing a novel/novella in the very near future. I'm going to find a LiveJournal community where I can post it, and I'll post links to the chapters on this journal.
-Tyler |
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